Manuscript Releases Volume Ten [Nos. 771-850] (1990), page 38, paragraph 2Chapter Title: MR No. 781 - Ellen G. White and Family LifeEllen Dreams of James After His Death--A few days since I was
pleading with the Lord for light in regard to my duty. In the night I
dreamed I was in the carriage, driving, sitting at the right hand.
Father was in the carriage, seated at my left hand. He was very pale,
but calm and composed. "Why Father," I exclaimed, "I am so happy to have
you by my side once more! I have felt that half of me was gone. Father,
I saw you die; I saw you buried. Has the Lord pitied me and let you come
back to me again, and we work together as we used to?" He looked very sad. He said, "The Lord knows what is best for you and
for me. My work was very dear to me. We have made a mistake. We have
responded to urgent invitations of our brethren to attend important
meetings. We had not the heart to refuse. These meetings have worn us
both more than we were aware. Our good brethren were gratified, but they
did not realize that in these meetings we took upon us greater burdens
than at our age we could safely carry. They will never know the result
of this long-continued strain upon us. God would have had them bear the
burdens we have carried for years. Our nervous energies have been "Now, Ellen, calls will be made as they have been, desiring you to attend important meetings, as has been the case in the past. But lay this matter before God and make no response to the most earnest invitations. Your life hangs as it were upon a thread. You must have quiet rest, freedom from all excitement and from all disagreeable cares. We might have done a great deal for years with our pens, on subjects the people need that we have had light upon and can present before them, which others do not have. Thus you can work when your strength returns, as it will, and you can do far more with your pen than with your voice." He looked at me appealingly and said, "You will not neglect these
cautions, will you, Ellen? Our people will never know under what
infirmities we have labored to serve them because our lives were
interwoven with the progress of the work, but God knows it all. I regret
that I have felt so deeply and labored unreasonably in emergencies,
regardless of the laws of life and health. The Lord did not require us
to carry so heavy burdens and many of our brethren so few. We ought to
have gone to the Pacific Coast before, and devoted our time and energies
to writing. Will you do this now? Will you, as your strength returns,
take your pen and write out these things we have so long anticipated,
and make haste slowly? There is important matter which the people need.
Make this your first business. You will have to speak some to the
people, but shun the responsibilities which have borne us down." "Well," said I, "James, you are always to stay with me now and we
will work together." Said he, "I stayed in Battle Creek too long. I
ought to have I awoke. But this dream seemed so real. Now you can see and
understand why I feel no duty to go to Battle Creek for the purpose of
shouldering the responsibilities in General Conference. I have no duty
to stand in General Conference. The Lord forbids me. That is
enough.--Letter 17, 1881, pp. 2-4. (To W. C. White, September 12, 1881.)
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